free

a feeling that emerges
from the depth of my soul
a contentment that heals the wounds
and makes me whole
an understanding of who i am
just as me
as i was intended to be
completely incomplete and free

no wandering eyes
seeking a wandering prize
that takes flight into the night skies
without return
that leaves the heart to yearn
for something greater in turn
for what is had
dad

confident in the woman i am
confident that i dont need a hand
but desiring still someone to stand
with
kid
but until then i can still live
im alive
as myself
no need to strive to be something else
im not
the time will come when it ought
and what will be will be
i will be sought
out

so my home is where my heart is
and there my treasure is also
every moment i smile
because im running destinys mile
and ive made it through the trial
so now im complete
on my own two feet
and "whats meant to be will be"
so all i can do is be me....

free

paper

little girls are told that theyll end up happy
happily ever after is said
over and over again
and no one ever said
that the happy could end
would end

mom gave me a heart made of paper
said to protect it and keep it safer
than the toys i played with and abused
because they were played so much and used
for things they ought not
but as a child i was never taught
that things had such value
and i may not get another
if i didnt care to bother
to keep what i had safe
so watch how you play....dear

i took my heart made of paper with me through life
i didnt keep it safe and it gave me strife
because i threw it out to whomever would catch it
though they never fetched it
from me
and now its quite hard to see
what its supposed to be
because its been put in too many pockets
when i shouldve just locked it up
instead i gave it away
and once they got my paper they didnt stay
and i thought paper would make them play
but now my paper heart is finding its way
into MY pocket to stay
until its asked for
and promised to be protected
not thrown on a dresser and left with
a pile of other girls paper hearts
that have all been neglected
no my heart is with me today
until someone desires to put it away
in their special place where its the ONLY ONE
itll be locked up and safe until that day comes
and i patiently wait
with my paper heart up to fate
to be placed on the right plate
and there isnt a date
im just here
happy and sincere
with MY heart in my pocket
and im  not ready to give it to anyone....
so stop it.